“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while.”
1 Peter 1:6
This past Tuesday was my mom’s birthday. To help her celebrate, my grandma and uncle came into town. In the days before her birthday as my dad and I were beginning to plan what we were going to do for her birthday, we talked about making a cake, buying a gift, and a plan to get everyone together. I’m back at work now and only come back to visit on the weekends. My dad and I decided that we would let it be a surprise that I would be coming home on her actual birthday to see family and celebrate.
Last weekend, she kept asking me what my plans were and whether or not I was going to be able to come back one night to visit my grandma and uncle. I told her that I was busy and just wouldn’t be able to fit it in my schedule. She was obviously disappointed, but didn’t really say much to me about it. She even asked my dad if I really wasn’t going to come back on Tuesday and he told her that I had plans. As I was leaving to go back to work for the week, I could tell that she was very disappointed that I wouldn’t be back. As I began to drive away, I started to think about how sad she was. However, I knew that her sadness would be temporary because I would return on Tuesday and all would be well. Then, it hit me– my relationship with God is a little bit like this sometimes.
Recently, I’ve graduated college, applied for graduate school, and spent a lot of time trying to figure out what the next steps are. For several months, things have just be confusing. Trying to figure out what is next in the midst of a global pandemic can be difficult. I’ve been disappointed because I felt like things were so up in the air and I didn’t really feel like I was getting answers.
However, when I realized that just like I knew that there was an end coming to my mom’s sadness, God knows what joy lies ahead for us. He has had this planned out from the start and already knows what steps lie ahead and promises to walk with me through them. It is so easy for us to become short-sighted and forget that there is more coming. It was so easy for me to look at my circumstances and not think that things were going to work out. I have recently hated the question, “So what’s next?” because I truly didn’t know and didn’t feel like I had a good enough answer.
I think it is important for us to remember that God is all-knowing, sovereign, and always working. It is easy for us to get down or short sighted in our present circumstances because we don’t know what is next. However, if we trust that the God who has been always been faithful will continue to be, I truly believe that we will go places that we never dreamed of. We never know what is around the corner. In the days after this realization, I have been accepted to graduate school, so sometimes I think we just need a little patience.