“Those who know your name trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.”
Honestly, I do not know where to start. The journey of this year has been one that I never would have planned for myself and am still trying to make sense of.
I think we sometimes forget how far God has carried us. It is funny how I can sit here and write about trusting God and remembering that we can’t see the whole picture and then do the complete opposite when things aren’t great in my own life.
I would consider myself to be extremely blessed. Up until recently, I have not had many things that I have had to really “deal” with in my life. I have always been blessed with incredible parents, great friends, and an almost unhealthy sense of security. Things got turned upside down and I started to see some things that I held so dear get slowly pulled away. For a while, it felt like thing after thing was getting stripped away and I started living with the attitude of “what’s next???”. I feel like in the midst of it all, I just became numb to what was happening and then when the smoke cleared for a little bit I was left with all these emotions to deal with and I got increasingly confused.
For a while, I really could not figure out why I was left feeling so empty and broken until I realized that I had not been trying to pick up the pieces alone. I was not relying on God to help me but instead I thought that I could gather it all up and put it back together and things would go back to the way they once were.
I don’t think that it’s healthy for us to always be comfortable. I think that we need to be chasing things that may seem risky and I also don’t think that God wants us to stay comfortable. How are we going to impact people for the gospel if we are too comfortable. We have to be willing to take risks and say “yes” to God even though sometimes it seems like the scariest thing in the world.
But see, I don’t want to just sit here and tell you that if you trust in God it is all going to work out as soon as you snap your fingers. It takes time and He has a plan far greater than our own. Thankfully, we have a God who knows our every need and emotion. It is okay to not have it all together, I for sure haven’t lately. We are humans, with emotions and are always going to be imperfect. I encourage you to fix your eyes on Jesus and pursue Him with all that you have. We have a comforter in times of trouble,”When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2
Even when we feel like we are alone God says to us, “I will be with you.” What a friend we have in Jesus. I can’t think of anyone more dependable.
So I encourage you that even when life gets hard, to trust that He is with you and that He knows. I know how lonely it feels sometimes but keep your eyes on the truth. There is nothing more certain life than the promises of God. Jesus is ALWAYS with you. That is something that I am continuing to learn ever single day.
God has not abandoned you. You are loved and He has a plan.